Well here I am

Well here I am now three months into an open poly relationship. Personally I am more freaked out about being in a 3 plus month relationship. Oddly I feel completely at ease and completely freaked out
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Maddie:
I don't want to be in this relationship any longer. Advice?
(26 January 2017)

Maddie:
But I need some comfort and some advice.
(26 January 2017)

Maddie:
I know I still need to break things off if it's a relationship I don't feel right in.
(26 January 2017)

Maddie:
And she just started getting introduced to all my friends, and they're starting to hang out and talk, and it feels like a mess.
(26 January 2017)

Maddie:
Which is kinda important when we live together, and share our things.
(26 January 2017)

Maddie:
I'll feel terrible, and I can't see her handling it maturely at all.
(26 January 2017)

Maddie:
And it's not like I can affords to leave and still help with rent, and I really don't want to live there if we break up (or right now, honestly). Not to mention, I know it's going to be a nightmare if I break things off.
(26 January 2017)

Maddie:
But it's really hard, we still have 7 months on our apartment lease.
(26 January 2017)

Maddie:
I don't really feel attracted anymore, I want to explore other options, and things just don't feel right to me.
(26 January 2017)

Maddie:
It's like, I've known for a little bit that I don't want to be in this relationship.
(26 January 2017)