Video Upload Issues

So I took a 13 minute video this morning on my phone that I wanted to post here and have literally been working on it all day. Seems the file is too large. I can't email It to myself, I am unabl
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Sabina:
My gf likes to dance but i do not like to dance, sometimes she goes out dancing with her friends.
(23 December 2017)

Alita:
How do I distract myself over Christmas from thinking about how my Mom's family won't visit me or have me over?
(23 December 2017)

Alita:
I hate this time of year because of this.
(23 December 2017)

Alita:
It opens all my hurt feelings about my Mom's suicide and guilt I feel as I have anxiety and was a hyper and stressful kid and so feel her family blames me.
(23 December 2017)

Alita:
So how do I distract myself over Christmas from this hurt so I can still enjoy my day?
(23 December 2017)

Alita:
Then my grandmother died and they stopped including me again.
(23 December 2017)

Alita:
The two years they did include me was so joyful that I miss it.
(23 December 2017)

Alita:
Weddings are the only event I am invited to.
(23 December 2017)

Alita:
I feel I am 2nd rate and missing out as everyone else is real close and gets together once a month on average.
(23 December 2017)

Alita:
They are cordial and not mean, but never include me.
(23 December 2017)