Marriage, masturbation, sex and whatever

I fell asleep writing this post last night. I'm sure that has some significance but I'm not really in a mood to think anymore so I'm just gonna wing it. This is my second day off work, and
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Nicki:
I would like to know if this has ever happened to anyone and if it has, is there any advice you could give to let go of this?
(17 March 2018)

Nicki:
I keep going back to his social media and making myself even more upset and I just want this to stop.
(17 March 2018)

Nicki:
He has apologized multiple times and agreed that it upsets him too.
(17 March 2018)

Nicki:
This was all, of course, after we had made up so I was trying my best to keep myself together, but I couldn't.
(17 March 2018)

Nicki:
I had a full blown panic attack and embarrassingly enough cried right in front of him.
(17 March 2018)

Nicki:
As soon as I found out that this had occurred and he had deleted all of our pictures up until our one month together, I felt my chest tighten and I could barely breathe.
(17 March 2018)

Nicki:
When times got rough, I used his social media to look back on simpler things, it always gave me a smile and a glimmer of hope for my future.
(17 March 2018)

Nicki:
In a technology driven world, most of our memories are held within social media and I believe it really is a great platform to hold onto such things.
(17 March 2018)

Nicki:
We got into a very serious fight, and I did feel as though he was justified to be angry, but of course, not that angry.
(17 March 2018)

Nicki:
My boyfriend of one year has recently deleted all of our pictures off of social media.
(17 March 2018)