Um...

It is no fun writing unhappy posts. (It's not usually much fun to read them either.) I try to look for the silver linings and the joys in each day. I did have one today. .. I saw and felt the sun!
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Merlyn:
I don t know how to get over this, or if I even should. :( I cannot tell anyone becuz they would hate me.
(7 February 2019)

Merlyn:
Its all I ever think about and it destroys me.
(7 February 2019)

Merlyn:
What I did was horrible and if I got the chance to travel back in time I d rather of killed myself than have went and did what I did.
(7 February 2019)

Merlyn:
I keep telling myself to just forgive it, that I was a kid and it was not my fault.
(7 February 2019)

Merlyn:
I regret it more than anything and I have lived with this for years without telling anyone and I get constant reminders of what I did.
(7 February 2019)

Merlyn:
When I was a kid , maybe 11 or 12 , I did something very sick and I regret it.
(7 February 2019)

Glory:
How would you treat the materialistic people?
(7 February 2019)

Apolonia:
I am getting sick and tired of it.
(7 February 2019)

Apolonia:
Its like he can do things and he controls me.
(7 February 2019)

Apolonia:
He gets mad at that saying he is with his parents and me going out with my friends and cousins are different.
(7 February 2019)