Friday

I've been so caught up in working and getting things done around the house that I've not been as active on this site as I have been in the past. Thus, I've lost my gold ball. Oh well, that's the way
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Marlena:
Some guys ask if I'm a model and I just laugh about it, because it really sounds like mockery even if they are being honest, models are supposed to be attractive.
(27 July 2019)

Marlena:
I can't fix myself up, I don't look good.
(27 July 2019)

Marlena:
I look very masculine and my hair isn't short.
(27 July 2019)

Marlena:
The guys that want to date me are unattractive and fat, when even though I might not be pretty, at least I'm not fat.
(27 July 2019)

Marlena:
That doesn't happen when I have my own photo up, but if I have a fake profile, I get so many messages from the guys I want to talk to.
(27 July 2019)

Marlena:
I just wanna be flooded with messages.
(27 July 2019)

Marlena:
I can't completely change my whole face, but I can at least do something to make my nose smaller, have smaller lips, bleach my skin, and wear straight wigs.
(27 July 2019)

Marlena:
I know it's a form of internalized racism, but that's how I feel.
(27 July 2019)

Marlena:
White and Asian women look the most beautiful in my opinion, so I always wanted to be white or Asian.
(27 July 2019)

Marlena:
I have always hated being black and I wanted to change myself to be beautiful, because I don't feel beautiful.
(27 July 2019)