Transformation

I lay here, thinking of life, pondering if I made the right decisions. The darkness surrounds me, doubts set in. Where is the hope, where is the joy, where is the love, the peace I crave? The darkness
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Barbar:
The girl I love doesn't want to marry me since I am from a different background and earn less than her?
(8 February 2017)

Barbar:
Are all women into a guy's education, status, and money.
(8 February 2017)

Barbar:
It makes me feel very low of myself.
(8 February 2017)

Barbar:
I feel very sad after this incident.
(8 February 2017)

Barbar:
She also says that she earns more than I do and so our marriage will not work out as she will be the hard earning member.
(8 February 2017)

Barbar:
It really hurts and sometimes I feel embarrassed.
(8 February 2017)

Barbar:
I got really wounded for the way she shinks of me.
(8 February 2017)

Barbar:
She talks as if she is superior to me because she studied a technical and demanding subject and is also more intelligent than I am.
(8 February 2017)

Barbar:
As of now, she earns more than I do.
(8 February 2017)

Barbar:
I studied music in university and she studied engineering.
(8 February 2017)