The ache

The times between dates with my gf of 4 months are achy from wanting to be close to her. She excites my mind, my heart, and of course my body. I am greatful to have met someone that fits so well. Da
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Jenice:
I feel like a lot of guys feel uncomfortable around me and I don't know why.
(5 December 2017)

Mimi:
Why do girls either reject me or friend zone me?
(5 December 2017)

Odessa:
I've hated myself for years because I feel as though I raped them.
(5 December 2017)

Odessa:
But once it started happening, they wanted it to happen and didn't regret it.
(5 December 2017)

Odessa:
I just recently talked to them about that and they said the reason they finally said yes was to stop my begging.
(5 December 2017)

Odessa:
Then I would ask about a month later.
(5 December 2017)

Odessa:
I kept asking and asking but they would say they were uncomfortable so I wouldn't ask for a while.
(5 December 2017)

Odessa:
We were both virgins and I really wanted to have sex with them.
(5 December 2017)

Odessa:
But apparently (I did not realize it) I had constantly been begging my partner for sex.
(5 December 2017)

Odessa:
A few years ago I lost my virginity.
(5 December 2017)