On Grief

There are no words to express the deep grief I have over my husband's death a few years ago, but I am at the point on most days where I can think of him and smile. The grief is there and always will b
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Obdulia:
Or should I just stay home and let him hang out with his coworkers without me?
(12 December 2018)

Obdulia:
He's the one who did bring it up about calling in that day.
(12 December 2018)

Obdulia:
We've talked about it before and I understand that in the dangerous environment they work in they have to look after each other (in turn causes the closeness). I don't want to seem like I'm going to spy, but at the same time I feel like I secretly am.
(12 December 2018)

Obdulia:
Also, I have been a little insecure about a female coworker that's he is close with.
(12 December 2018)

Obdulia:
Then again I don't want to seem like I'm a whiney wife who made her husband call in so she could go to HIS work party.
(12 December 2018)

Obdulia:
I want to go because all he does is work, and we never go to any social events.
(12 December 2018)

Obdulia:
Husband says if I want to go he will call into work tomorrow (he works afternoons gets out at 10pm) so he doesn't have to drive back after work an hour out of the way to pick me up.
(12 December 2018)

Obdulia:
His work Christmas party is at a bar a coworker owns.
(12 December 2018)

Obdulia:
Let me start off with my husband and I have been together for 9 years and married for 1 year.
(12 December 2018)

Luise:
Fartin' on the first date?
(12 December 2018)